My com went on an auto-shut off and never revived again two days before my presentation. Including 2 re-submissions.
My mind felt like a total give-up though people around told me not to.
This is irritating.... Even my photography are gone. My thumbnail sketches were missing and i had to re-draw them. This is so uncalled for. And I keep locking myself outta the house. As well as forgetting to bring my phone out. Blame me for the forgetfulness and those torn bags.

I'm half mad.

I wished life hasn't been that complicated. And I wouldn't be so afraid of everything that comes along the way. As well as being indecisive. Yet at times I've realised  I have the inability to express how I feel....

And when I wore my specs out today during the day, the colours of life seemed to be playing before my eyes.... That made me feel as if I'm so clouded by negativity to forget how pretty life can be. How much I could do.

Yeah my ass.

gotta go.
pics will be updated soon. I don't even bother excessing facebook man.
-*typed on fren's com*

Labels: i hate it when things dun go as planned.

I havent been updating for a looonnnggg while now...
Sorry for my procrastinations.
Stuffs been happening.
Good and bad.


Went with Doll to AFA on day 2 that day and i did my fake lashes wrongly!! Which i find it pretty funny. Day 2 could have been better. Especially on day 1 itself
Maybe it was due to that sleepless night previously. Or that i'm just plain ugly....


Thanks to all the photographers that day whom took the interest in taking me. *bows* and the awesome friends i see, and Simon company. ^^


I met Kaname! Sorry doll u didnt manage to take pic with him. Day 2 could have been really better...


here's some....
Day 1....








Day 2


Helped out my dudes with their photo shoot and stuffs. Had fun!


Sentosa's trip.


there's more to come...
the crazy webcam thing that sets the whole school going.


Did a shoot for Sausage too...
Thank you so much! Its an honour to take interest and do the shoot.
I hoped u enjoyed the day as much as i did.
hoped we do could do another one soon!
*hugs*
anyway, here's the sneaks.








Other random ones....


I've realised that its enough to have one person whom you've met in your life to screw up everything as well as your future and your point of view


And updating my blog takes up the whole damn day...


How much we could enjoy being a kid before the day we set our ass working.
And not to mention that i enjoyed this kind of little life's pleasure before i set off to work and be an working adult.


And I've realised how reading could have added my insights to my point of view to life and people.
How Morrie filled his days up with a good fight to his dying life, and filled his days with people and connecting   with them with his heart on days that he's alive. Then, i wonder how many people could achieve that.  Then i wonder if i could do that. 
To put up with a good fight to whatever that comes along.


If one day i could talk to god. I know i wouldn't pray or ask for anything.
neither do i wanna ask for riches
but  understanding and passion.


I've realised that I'm not alone.


I've realised that i'm still strong enough to break away from that guy before something even worse happened to me. 


But 
I've lost something even more precious. And i'm nt proud.

life silent teachings can at times be too hard to handle...