6th April'2014

My grandmama passed away on the 1st of April. I haven't shed a tear for her. Its weird. I thought I would cry my heart out. And right now,I couldn't bear to look at her funeral pictures everything semed so surreal.
Maybe one day tears will fall. I'm not heartless you see, I'm actually fucked up on the inside. Really really fuck up. I can't express neither do I know how to.

I went out on Friday with Evangeline for lunch at tiong barhu Ajisen and Dinner together with Si Jie and Debby at Chinatown Point. They paid for my food. So happy. And intellectual talks are good for the heart. Its good to have friends who doesn't judge

I'm writing this entry at Genting at First World Hotel today,I felt a little more carefree. A little happier.

Maybe it was because Leslie told me he wants to meet this week. I shouldn't onto too much hope. He might give up. I told the girls about him too. He ideally matched all the criteria I wanted. Oh wells.

My god- sister and her husband drove me here. It was a long journey but it was good. The weather here is good too.
She bought kewpie at some 7-11 for me. I'll try to control my appetite for it. Hahaha. And earrings too.

Today, and yesterday, I feel as though I'm the luckiest girl on earth. I'm glad I have her and everyone else. I think I've just gained unwanted weight again.Omg.

6th April'2014

My thoughts about the casino

As though lost in time, these people are stuck in this web those illuminating lights the outside world seemed non-existent. As though the morals were left outside and love becomes only the world of money. My 6th sense doesn't seem to to work here...

The obsessed,the desperate the patient and the depressed.

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