after all my laziness and proscrinating.... I've finally upload pics here!! some are super random, some aren't. And i realised dat himegyaru doesnt suit me at all... LOL. Cuz i know dat im not that pretty to handle it! Muahahha. Actually, i was crapping around.... Maybe im bothered about such things. There are things ive realised.... I really need a job and i've finally got 1! wee!~ but i hated it... To the core.... Yet, i know that i didnt have a choice. My weekends are gonna be burnt but i dun have anything to do during that point of time! So, its ok i guess. But i still dun like dat job!!!!!! Did alot on my bday actually. But no one got me prezzies. Only baby and evangeline did! And other that dat, bday wishes! LOL im happy enough that way. *grins* here are some pictures i promised and the ULTRA BIG ICE CREAM that made baby and i laughing like idiots. I wished he was that happy all the time... i was different when i first know him... so many things had happened but i love him all the same....

weeee!~ my bday had loads going up!! Loads of fun fun fun too!!!
I'm 21 and i guessing and im super older! Sobbb soobbb...
I feel change is comming and i dunno wad it'll be like...
I'm scared.
that things will change between us. And.......
it'll be over.

Maybe... Jus maybe i might be thinking just too much.....
Hmm.... Pictures uploaded soon!!!!

I dunno why is he getting pissed at small things....
i dunno... I dunno why im hurt at times too...
I dunno how much he loves me anymore.
i dunno...
i'm unhappy.
i dun understand anymore.
and yeah...
was filling up the wall putty
at baby's cousin office,
and i stood thinking....
with so many that's happening
hy, stalker bla... bla... bla....
esp the stalker, i know at times something reminds me of something,
but like everyone. its a god-damned SCAR and i find it a phobia and stuffs,
and with time, it can only get better.
with people around me, it can heal faster.....
y doesnt ppl understand how i feel
jus keep getting angry
and angry
and angry
and angry
at me....
im nth.
jus nth to u all
no efforts.
i love him more than anything else in the word...
happy bday to me....

Labels: sigh

ilovehim ^^

Labels: weee

Went Vivocity with baby and spent the whole day there... Super sweet today... No fights, no arguments, nothing... Utter sweetness. Till, at night. Said something abt S and i guess that kinda pissed him off.... Took pics at Harbour Front the park outside. Some version of his, and some of mine watched movie after that. I'm happy....

Seriously,
i sick of everything.
E-V-E-R-Y
s-i-n-g-l-e
s-h-i-t

and the past the keeps coming back like tumors in my brains, and plagues on my skin...
i cannot forgive and i cannot forget yet, i'll continue to learn.
anyway, ive deleted every single person frm my phonebook.
jus dun wish to talk to anyone anymore. so tiring......
i wish i could turn back time and get the past right.
and get everything right....

i'll upload the pics soon.
my 1000D baby is nt with me!~
no more the old me in school.

thurs: meet kore kurei
fri: baby!

no, i dun love s_____ anymore. only u.
if she was alive, she would be 5 mths
and a year had passed.
baby,
i know u have problems
and im trying my best
thou- i know i dun seem to...

Labels: trying, trying.....