Footprints In The Sand

Thursday, October 15, 2009 @ 3:23 AM

sleepy little an an. she has sinus at nite super cute. my fave little thing.

she loves it when i rub her fuzzy cheeks and head

as she sleeps.

i cant get past me.
so many voices in my head.
you can do it... you cannot do it...
so many people helped. thank you.

anyway i shall let the pictures do the talking....

i feel fat

wiwi still the normal one..

dats more like it. haahaha

jealously... heh.

suprise!!!

the girls at TCC.

My new fave place man!! TCC at Raffles. with couches that when u sit and have a problem getting up and all. But TCCs always seem to be so cold. And the prices all so ex. Can die. I guess its a place to go when u feel rich. hahaha. Did i mention dat Debby bought for me the straw hat? Thanks love!!!

So those were snapshots of us losng ourselves at TCC.

At times, its nice losing that princess procelain doll look with friends whom cry and laugh and stone with you... Oh wait...

I dunno if I have achieved da look first yet... Hime hime.. heee...

I know I know... my hands look awkward in this pic.

drank more than I was supposed to yesterday and I don't think I have drank that much beer in my life either... Its like letting lose of myself. Though I didn't make a fool outta myelf but still.... I'm embarassed.

it feels as if the more i drink, the better i feel. and i wanna keep losing this feeling. Yet i dun wanna run away. I've been drinking too much. I should really really stop...

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Lost

haunted trees

and whispering trunks,

ripples of water and chatter of birds.

Losing myself where sanity were sung,

I run and hide till i could no more.

i want you. come back. come back.

at times i know dat u will

at times i know that u wont. you know that I'll wait right?

there's always a U-turn and I'm aways there waiting.

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Are we?

Are we living in shells that are filled with goals and heartaches. challenges and falls?

And if we are so,

What does these goals made of? Stone for us to stumble and fall?

And love that are questions and a mystery to my minds?

Are we then the stone itself to forget what are we living for?

And the materials of the society that deprives us from our happiness?

Can I one day cover my eyes and face one day to see my shell of harshness towards life

And pain towards tears.

Or is it beautiful in the old men's saying?

Or is it only to my imaginations?

Can my camera see the beauty beyond the beauty of simplicity?

Or is it simplicity itself could kill you from what you have?

Are we still alive to have to face this war every single day?

Does living really means to fight?

Can I close this shell of reality?

Is this what i make of to see what it is?

Do i know what am I talking about?

Do you know what am i talking about?

At the crossroads of life

Where the end is nothing that we worked hard for.

Yet every decision made is diamonds to the future

The mistakes of the past are decisions of the future a responsibility for tomorrow. How do I make that happen?

My eyes might not see the truth

Illusions might not be a lie.

My mind might not say what I want

My heart might not feel my mind.

I might not speak what I think

I think might not be how I feel

The fact may not be the best

It is might be what my mind wants it.

Like,

It is dark because there's an absence of light. - Albert Einstein

Then,

There are lies because there is absence of fact is it not?

Or

There’s lies beyond it there's a truth

There’s an answer in something that we believe in?

Therefore,

An illusion?

We are in a circle round-about of life.

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That I do not want to be in.

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